Friday, May 20, 2011

Ashur!! Need I say more :)

So my little man is growing up so much everyday it's mind boggling!! Sometimes I sit and stare at him and get a little sad because he isn't a baby anymore and I would like for time to stand still. He is talking so good and has a personality that's larger than life. He makes me enjoy everything so much more! Even the smallest mundane things can seem like an adventure through his eyes. Three years ago my precious nephew Bentley passed away at only 22 months. His life although short has impacted our lives forever and is missed every single day! Since having Ashur I feel so blessed and appreciative for every second I have with him because we never know the time God has allotted for us. since my last blog so much has happened. He has adapted so great to KDO on thursdays. It took his teacher about 3 weeks to realize his obsession with Mr. Potato Head so from then on she has had him waiting at the gate for him. He gets so excited to go every week he runs from the car all the way to his class yelling " I Love School"!! Needless to say it's the cutest thing ever and makes my heart smile :) We went to Miami for a week last month and got to stay with Fawaad's aunt and uncle. We hung out with his cousins and got to meet the newest member of the Shah family Miss Sophia! We had an insanely busy week of a football game, pro baseball game, Miami sea aquarium, shopping of course, and the funnest was Ashur's first beach experience! When he got his first sight of the water he screams "The Ocean" with heartfelt enthusiasm with the biggest grin plastered on his face. He very decisively stops, finds a seat and runs over to sit down so he can take his flip flops off. I help him remove his shoes and he jumps up and says "I can't wait mommy.. I can't wait to get in the water!!" at that very moment my heart melts and tears flood my eyes. There is nothing better in the world than experiencing the purest most exhilarating JOY there is. He was in heaven running back and forth from the water to the sandcastle, helping build, tearing stuff down ( of course), shoveling sand and throwing it in the water, collecting sea shells. Whatever his little mind could think to do!! The next night we decide to go out and have dinner and Fawaad's aunt graciously volunteers to babysit Ashur for us. I was a little nervous because he didn't know them very well so I made sure he was really tired, gave him a bath and did bedtime routine, made him some milk and tucked him in and put on Dora thinking he will be out in no time! We leave and meet up with his cousins and head out to south beach to our dinner destination. After about an hour and a half I have Mansoor (cousin) call his mom to check in on Ashur just sure he was out like a light... Well I couldn't have been more wrong!! I can hear his aunt laughing and yelling in Urdu. Mansoor translates saying... I can't get him to go to sleep. He keeps kicking me when I try to go sit on the bed with him and tells me to get out of his room. So I walk out and he runs over and shuts the door and locks it!! I was mortified to say the least. My little independent child doesn't cry or whine for mommy, isnt concerned where his daddy is, he just wanted the stranger out of his room! I have to admit I laugh everytime I replay that scene in my mind of how i imagined it went down. In there culture Little boys are treated like kings so I'm so glad she took it in good humor and wasn't too offended! We truly had a blast and hope to get back down there soon. Since we've been back everything has returned to our joyful chaotic life as usual, and were looking forward to our next adventure. Our first movie theater experience!! Next month Cars 2 is coming out and I can't wait to see what kind of stories I will have to share after that :) sorry for such a long post. It's been awhile!!

Saturday, February 19, 2011

1 day down!

So the first day of KDO was surprisingly easy and relatively painless.. Our day started early and for my son this was concern #1 for me! He is such a sleeper and loves sleeping in just like his daddy :) I got up that morning and wanted to have everything ready before I woke him from his slumber so I get breakfast made, set out his clothes, get his bags packed, lunch made, and myself somewhat presentable. I ran Ashur a bath and figured that would help him wake up a little easier and hopefully start him off in a better mood. It seemed to work great! He woke up pretty easily and seemed to be in a good mood. As we get dressed and ready to go I am talking to him about his new school and getting him excited about experiencing some new things. As we walk out the door I realize concern #2... I forgot to feed him breakfast! So I grab him a banana for the ride which he takes one bite of and throws the rest on the floor. Aldo like his father he's not much of an early morning eater. We say a prayer in the car together on the way praying that Jesus would be with Ashur and help the transition go smoothly. We get to the school and he seems to be instantly interested by all the other kids. He starts checking things out while I finish all the paper work and then it's time for the dreaded drop off! He instantly grabs my neck a little tighter when he begins o realize what's about to aspire. His teacher recognizes his hesitation and begins talking to him about his super cool new back pack. She even starts singing " There's A Party In My Tummy" which was the ticket. He started smiling and went right to her! I left there around 9 and by 9:45 was chomping at the bit to call and check on him. I fought off the urge until 11:30 and could go no longer! The director assured me he was great and they were fixing to sit down and start arts and crafts. When I went to pick him up around 1:30 he was still napping so I didn't get to see that crazy excited reaction I was hoping for when he saw me, but I was so relieved to hear from his teacher that he was perfect all day and had lots of fun!! I hope this wasn't a one time deal and he will do this well every week...

Wednesday, February 16, 2011


So Ashur is starting his first day of the Kids Day Out program at our church here in Fayetteville.. I am nervous, anxious, excited, worried, scared! Ok honestly too many emotions to write down.. The closest thing he has had to compare this new experience to is an hour stay at the kids fun factory at Fayetteville athletic club where I work out, and he typically lasts a good 45 mins before he has a total meltdown and is crying for me and begging to go home! His whole life he has been watched by and surrounded by people who love him and give him there full, undivided attention. He has definitely been spoiled to say the least! He is desperately needing some social interaction with other kids, and I also think the structured environment will be great for him. I just think as a mom you want every care taker throughout your kids life to love them as much as you do and see that they are the coolest kid that ever lived. Although I know this is an impossible reality it doesn't make it any easier to drop my child off with a room full of strangers and new rules! I am trying to say strong for him and not pass on this anxious energy. I have been talking to him about his "new school" for the last 2 weeks now trying to prepare him, but in my heart I know that he has absolutely NO clue what I'm talking about and is gonna be blind sided by me leaving him in a strange place with strange people for 5 whole hours!! I hope he handles this whole process better than me because I feel like an emotional basket case right now.. I guess this post will be continued tomorrow and I will do a follow up post!

Thursday, February 10, 2011

My very first Blog!!

So over the last few months I have had several people try to introduce me to world of blogging. Not being very interested and a lack of dedicating even more of time to the computer I was hesitant to say the least, but after checking out several of my friends I started to get intrigued by the idea. Being the resistant and stubborn girl that I can be from time to time I still didn't think it would ever be for me! One very good friend described it to me as an online scrapbook or journal. Stories and pictures you can look back on and cherish forever. This definitely caught my attention and began changing my attitude toward the dreaded blog. Although my life feels like a circus half the time I just didn't think I would have anything interesting enough to blog about, but nevertheless here I am taking the plunge!!