Wednesday, February 16, 2011
So Ashur is starting his first day of the Kids Day Out program at our church here in Fayetteville.. I am nervous, anxious, excited, worried, scared! Ok honestly too many emotions to write down.. The closest thing he has had to compare this new experience to is an hour stay at the kids fun factory at Fayetteville athletic club where I work out, and he typically lasts a good 45 mins before he has a total meltdown and is crying for me and begging to go home! His whole life he has been watched by and surrounded by people who love him and give him there full, undivided attention. He has definitely been spoiled to say the least! He is desperately needing some social interaction with other kids, and I also think the structured environment will be great for him. I just think as a mom you want every care taker throughout your kids life to love them as much as you do and see that they are the coolest kid that ever lived. Although I know this is an impossible reality it doesn't make it any easier to drop my child off with a room full of strangers and new rules! I am trying to say strong for him and not pass on this anxious energy. I have been talking to him about his "new school" for the last 2 weeks now trying to prepare him, but in my heart I know that he has absolutely NO clue what I'm talking about and is gonna be blind sided by me leaving him in a strange place with strange people for 5 whole hours!! I hope he handles this whole process better than me because I feel like an emotional basket case right now.. I guess this post will be continued tomorrow and I will do a follow up post!